Im not sure how quite to word this.
My baby girl is due this Friday what should have been the best day of my life. Now looming as a day I just want to crawl in a hole and die.
Now made worse as my specialist rang me to confirm my c section for Friday.
Yeah I said I wish, that was happening.
And of course was a sobbing mess by the end of call.
I just don't know what do to, to mark this day?? Ill of course go to the grave and put more flowers at her grave, sit there and think of the things we should have had together.
Other than that,what to do, drink until I pass out, smoke crack till I feel better. I just don't think I ever will. Anything that will take the pain away.
How do people who have lost their children babies, pass this day??
Ive read some amazing stories of other ladies strength and courage, I just don't feel I know how to cope or what to do. Im a weak person who is failing badly, and are simply lost.
"no direction home"