I've been with my husband13 years
We've had our ups and downs more downs than ups but I never gave up hope for us till now... He moved out 4 months ago after admitting he had been a drug addict for 7 years! 7 years..... I had no idea 😢 not a clue!! We have two beautiful children 1year old& 7 year old....
I feel so betrayed, so lied to, so deceived and I feel like a fool!
Beyond most... I feel hurt but also understand now the reasons for the anger and abuse I've had to deal with the past 7 years... It all makes such sense now sadly!
So I kicked him out the house 4 months ago and for the first 3 months he continued to use drugs, stalk me, harass me endlessly to the point I had to get a safety order through the courts against him as I no longer felt safe for myself or my children
He has breached the order begging crying at the front door or in the back yard at all hours of the morning... He has been punished by the court for the breaches of the order and conditions of staying out of jail are had to stay drug free and have drug screens five every two days, had to attend anger management and parenting classes.
I guess why I'm on here is to ask have I done the right thing by not supporting him? By not getting back together with him? ;( I do love him but I've lost all trust for him n I am beyond hurt my heart is broken entirely every piece in tiny pieces laying on the floor next to where he smashed up my kitchen before he left..
I no he's changed since bring off the drugs I can see it he's calmer he's more rational caring etc.. But I can't help but think it's too late ...sorry!!!
He's never been a father yo either of our children at all.. Never been s husband as he was never home.. All he did was provide a stable income that's it! Literally all he ever contributed up the family n home
I feel lost I feel like I should give him another chance even though my head says no no no don't go it again you've been through this before
I really don't no what to do my house is on the market up for sale now which breaks my heart but I can't afford the mortgage on my own