hi lucymoo. sorry I have taken so long to reply properly. I have read a few and seen many books about dealing with depression, I wonder if you have found any to help you.? you seem to have an ability to write and express yourself very well. I wonder if just writing a journal or something for yourself, would that help to ease some of your anxiety. you don't have to censor anything you say, it will be just for your eyes. I have also just recently read a book by desmond tutu. about forgiveness. refering to the trials at the end of apartheid in south Africa. how is the treatment for the graves disease? is that helping you to manage the symptoms ok. ? perhaps if you focus on one problem at a time and try to not think of everything you want to 'fix'. your relationship with your daughter is the most important, and it seems you have that ok. mega hugs. marie.