Thank you ladies for your thoughts. I'm just totally bummed. I knew it but I live in hope.
To be fair @lilypily my previous recent cycles haven't been great either. Have had a few cancelled cycles now. I was seeing the best in the business so no where to go. We have to either accept DS will be all we have or look into alternatives. We have attended an adoption information session but it seems almost impossible. I'm unsure about permanent care as I have to think about the impact on DS.
I know we need to build up our friend network. DH and I are quite introverted people and really struggle to make friends. We went to kids party last year where we knew no one but the host (obviously they were busy) and it was just horrible. We just struggle to make small conversation.
Oh god, what have we done 😒