So damn lazy right now. Something is off in my fridge and I'm ignoring the pong that is exuding from it everytime I or someone else opens it because I cbf going through every little thing in there and cleaning it out.
In complete denial that I need to see a dr and get some help. I don't know if it's anxiety or depression but I'm not the mum I need to be at the moment,
Feeling the happiest i have in a few weeks. Getting that hug you need sometimes seriously does wonders. That hug turned into fantastic convo and a movie with more laughter inbetween. Feeling really lucky i can say i have a fantastic friend like him.
I am wishing I could avoid reality. Last of family have gone home and now I have to think about work. I would do just about anything to avoid tomorrow coming. I want it to be Sunday forever! But I know tomorrow will come as it always does
Bemused that i can't point out the bad part of peoples actions without my posts being deleted.
I hate admitting I'm seeing the emotional wellbeing team at the hospital, having occasional consults with a psychiatrist and going to a PPD group.
But for me the alternative was far scarier. Completely losing myself. Potentially losing my relationship, my job. Being the opposite kind of mum than I wanted to be.
Some days it's harder than others but I don't want to think about what the alternative looks like.
Thinking of you and wanted to let you know you've got support xx
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