So nervous at the moment. I'm sitting in the visitors chair in my room at the hospital waiting for the dr to come and talk to me because I'm about to be induced! My due date is tomorrow. We are having a girl. I wonder what method will be used. I wonder how long labour and birth will take. I wonder what she will look like. I wonder if I will be exhausted or high on happy hormones afterwards. I wonder what DD and DS will think about her when they meet her. I wonder if I'll get a birth suite with a bath or an ordinary delivery room. I wonder if she'll be content and quiet or be a high needs baby.
I can't believe this is the last time I will be pregnant. The last time I will feel her stretching inside me. The last time she will be all all mine, with no other influence but mine affecting how she grows & changes every day.
I want to savour this moment and hold time here forever- it felt like this moment would never come. This pregnancy has been so hard, so long. From starting with anxiety and depression, transitioning to low blood pressure attacks and anaemia, then pelvic girdle pain and bed rest, to varicose veins and haemorrhoids. It's been a long long pregnancy. I can't believe that in just hours it will be over and I will be holding my beautiful baby.