I'm absolutely devestated, I need to know that things will get easier. My husband and I have a beautiful 14 month old daughter conceived through ICSI as we both have fertility problems (I have hypothyroidism and on 200mcg thyroxine at the moment as it is all over the place and was on metformin for PCOS For years but was told to stop it after my daughter was born). I know that having a baby can kickstart your own fertility, so after she was born we tried naturally. I was still breastfeeding and two weeks after her first birthday I felt very uncomfortable and thought I may be ovulating (this rarely happened in my life and I still had not had my period return). I was right, and two weeks later after serial testing, I was pregnant! All my HCGs and progesterones were perfect. Had a 7 week scan which was perfect. I went for a routine Ob appt Thursday and there was no heartbeat 😢 absolutely gutted we were booked in for fri arvo for a D&C after I demanded a formal ultrasound as I was still so sick and had no symptoms that i was miscarry ing. My worst fears were confirmed and I had the procedure. I was released yesterday and can't stop crying. The baby was sent for testing but I'm sure we will never know. I have been started back on metformin and will book into an endocrinologist asap. I had our entire year planned around this baby, it was a natural conception, it was due during the best time of the year (16th July) as my husband is a farmer (when my daughter was born I only had him to help for two days (I had a CS) and we didn't see him or anyone for weeks) and I was giving up a job that I hate for good when I went on leave to become a mother and homemaker until the kids were big enough to go to school. I'm so angry, heartbroken and just want to curl up and die. I know I'm so lucky to have a beautiful little girl and loving husband. I know without them I wouldn't cope at all, but I just feel like I'm drowning in emotions! I don't want things to go back to normal cause they aren't normal! I just want to rewind two weeks and nothing to change. I was so sick this pregnancy and had been struggling. All for what?! A broken heart. I know there are so many out there who've lost many babies or babies further along the way but this is how I feel and I can't help that. How long does it take to feel human again?? I just hope I fall pregnant again this cycle, I know it will help but I will be so disheartened each day when it doesn't happen. Tell me I'm not a lost cause.