I am an absolute mess. I had a massive breakdown today and cannot stop crying.
Ds had tt snipped yesterday and straight after the appt I went back to lc. She tried to help me latch him so it wouldn't hurt.. but as soon as I left and tried to bf on my own nothing had changed. Dh pleaded with me to go back today after my episode which I did.
She checked his tt and said it was a posterior one and has to be done again surgically!
She has been trying to build my confidence and offered to weigh him so I wouldn't stress so much. .. he hasnt put on a gram!
Ive been feeding 2hrly, pumping in between and topping him up with my measly 10-20mls of ebm and nothing!
I am seriously on the verge of going crazy. I am trying so hard and my poor baby is missing out.
I can't stop crying, my poor dd barely gets time with me, Im living off 4hrs broken sleep a night and as of next week dh is back at work and im on my own.
I have no hope that motillium will work as it didnt first time around. I know he has to be fed but I dont want to finish bf, im not ready.
I just dont know what to do anymore. Im lost, I dont even know myself anymore