I am very overwhelmed at the moment, and TBH I am tired of going without. I feel like I've made the wrong decision to be with my partner and to have children and that I'm not in the right story (if that makes any sense!).
I try not to, but I hate everyone. I thought I was doing the right thing by having children when I was younger, but I never thought it would be this hard. Trying to be responsible, and not being able to have any freedom. My partner wanting to be able to take care of me all of the time, and me not wanting to be taken care of, but I feel bad to hurt his feelings and so I let him.
I just want to work and have a life, not be stuck in someone else's shadow. I thought I was doing the right thing.
I feel like because of these poor choices I have made that I'm never going to be normal, I'm never going to be happy.