My partner and I have been together for 10 months as of the 18th of November. He has two kids from his marriage, and the divorce hasn't been finalized (3 years+ separated at this stage).
I got my BFP on the 18th, which was also his birthday. I've told him, I've done bloods, I had a scan today, and they couldn't see anything so I'm hoping it's just too early for anything.
He's already stated his vote is for termination, and me saying "I can't do that" is taking complete control and not letting him have a say. Understandable, I get that point of view. But I know he's going to bring that up again and again, to me and to other people.
Within the last 48 hours we've established he doesn't want it, is 100% okay with the idea that if I did terminate I'd have to leave the relationship, but if the pregnancy actually results in an infant he's going to fight for 50%-full custody etc.
I made the argument that him asking me to terminate feels like me asking him to outright kill one of his pre-existing children. And he's said he couldn't so much kill them, but if he could he'd go back in time and 'throw their mother on her stomach'.
I've also been told this isn't a "person", it's a sickness until something has actually come of it. We obviously have conflicting ideas - I see this as the very beginning of a person, seeing as we were all the size of a pinprick at some point.
We've only known for 2 days and I'm already scared of the outcome. I've told him his comments have actually scared me that he might decide he wants to push me down some stairs or something.
And if all goes well and next July we have a child together, the rest of my life is going to be him battling against me for a child I've "forced" him to have by not terminating.
I seriously just need advice. I grew up knowing my father didn't want me and I don't want that for any child I ever have. But I also don't want to be afraid of being around him, and I sure as hell don't want to battle over a newborn when and if the time comes.
What can I even do? This is not what I want to be worried about right now.