Long story short DH and i have had a rough few years...mostly my issues with mental illness.
The last year or so though have been great...or so i thought. Every couple of months or so DH gets into one of his moods and completely dumps on me. He brings up how much i hurt him in the past...for the record i know how much i hurt him and i will never forgive myself for it but i cant keep apologizing for it. I say to him if hes so unhappy then what is he doing here and he says thing like 'i stay for the children...who are the only thing i get joy from in my life'. He constantly says he doesnt get enough sex and he feels like i dont love him.
He has said in the past that im unattractive (yes ive put on some weight but im working on it) and i dont do enough around the house. When you constantly hear things like this you eventually believe them. It must be my fault hes unhappy cause im a **** wife.
The thing that gets me is whenever he dumps on me like this its when im actually happy. Ive been happy for a long time now and hes not so maybe i cant make him happy because whenever im happy hes miserable.
Its just the same old stuff every time.