I think I've made my decision. I'm going to stop breastfeeding. I'm not going to do it immediately, I'll just sit on the decision for a few days and see how I feel.
After looking at all the pros and cons I do think that it is the best thing for us. DS is taking the bottle happily and has been much more settled since we started the comp feeds. I think I will cope better without the uncertainty and stress that comes with breastfeeding for me. The constant worry about his weight has put so much pressure on the breastfeeding relationship and it's a bit of a losing battle.
I want to enjoy being his mum and not spend all my energy focusing on feeding. I want him to have a full tummy and feel well without anything I'm eating upsetting him. On the selfish side of it, I want my body back and I want to be able to eat without scrutinizing labels or menus for traces of dairy.
It's such a difficult decision, I know I'm going to doubt myself and cry a lot!
BUT - I'm trying to focus on the 4+ months of breastfeeding he did get rather than worry about the months he didn't.