Well I basically fell apart today. DH had to come home from work, I was crying and couldn't stop. DS has really struggled to sleep for a few days now and I am absolutely exhausted. DH insisted we give DS a full feed of formula and see what happens - and DS slept for 1.5hrs! DH then gave him another bottle and his next nap was just over 3hrs!! Not only that, but he also self settled for his sleeps, even when he went down for the night which usually takes ages.
My SIL took me out for lunch so I could have a break, it probably helped DS to settle without my stress & anxiety around. I felt much better when I got back.
I called the LC and we discussed what I should do now. She said BFing isn't worth putting myself under pressure or making me so stressed that I don't enjoy my baby. She said I have done really well to get this far so should focus on what I have achieved rather than feel bad about stopping if that's what I decide to do. We agreed that I would offer more frequent comp feeds and see if it helps settle him. It's so frustrating because I feel like my supply is good (I pumped 180ml when he had a bottle feed) but he's just not gaining much weight or sleeping that well. His weight gain has slowed even more so we do need to address it.
Argh - this is so hard! I feel so sad thinking about not breastfeeding anymore but I want DS to be happy and healthy.