@Helsbaby @Nereid yes I can't help but think the numbers game and luck is a big factor here.
i am fortunate to get pretty strong eggs so far - and I don't regret PGD as it gives me peace of mind that I know a likely explanation for my BFN is chromosomal abnormalities.
i know my FS was emailed on Thursday to say AF had come and that BT was just a formality - she didn't respond to the nurses or contact me so I'm assuming she won't do so until the official results. I have a lot of travel second half of Jan / first half of Feb so at the moment my preference is to try and time another EPU for early Jan. If that isn't possible I will go with FET in December and then aim for next EPU late Feb. all comes down to the clinic I suspect and hours over Christmas / ny.
I have promised myself that my 45 bday in September next year is the cut off. I'm a bit scared that I'm becoming more open to donor embryo. I suppose I have realised that if I could adopt I would consider it and that really isn't that different, I was a step mum for a couple of years and I know how deeply you can love a child that is not biologically yours - even when the connection isn't from birth so I can only imagine that is even stronger.