i am hoping either intended mother/parents and surrogates may be able to give advice or share in their experiences with me so i don't feel so alone in this battle with unexplained infertility!!
i'm 33 years old and my husband is 37. we have been ttc for 5 years. after multiple failed ivf attempts, i'm starting to wonder if we will ever become parents. i have never been pregnant and i feel like time is our enemy. its heartbreaking bc i just know that we would be great parents together! i feel guilty to admit that i am just so tired of it all. i'm tired of being sad or mad all the time, i'm tired of trying to be patient and hopeful, i'm tired of being tired! i wish for and mourn everyday for a child i may never meet. when is it time to look into other options? i can't help but feel like a failure as a women and as a wife. we get to the embryo transfer stage each time but for some unknown reason i haven't yet been able to get pregnant. i know there are plenty of other women whose journeys have been longer and more difficult. am i giving up too easily by looking into surrogacy now? i want this more than anything in the world but i don't know what to do. i don't know how many more ivf cycles i could handle physically or mentally, but i also don't know if i could ask another woman to have my baby? how do you even go about it? how do you feel when your child grows and moves and you can't feel it? i have signed up to the altruistic surrogacy website in search of more information. i don't mean to read as completely negative. i'm normally a very strong person but this process has robbed me of my confidence. i'm struggling to find hope and faith lately. today is just one of the difficult days..
any advice is greatly appreciated.