I posted back in July about how much i was struggling and sadly things are no better. :-( I'm lying in bed fighting the intense urge to overdose. Not to die as I wouldn't have enough but to knock myself out. I just need to escape.
Things are never going to get better and I'm sure everyone would be better off without me. too many people around me having babies and I'm too weak to have any more. Physically able just not emotionally- dh and dd deserve a new start with someone else as I'm no good to anyone.