Lately out of nowhere, I've not been able to avoid thinking about death on a daily basis and I've been having quite a bit of anxiety just thinking about it. It's not a fear of me actually dying, it's more that I'm scared that DP will die and I won't know what to do with myself (DP is 22 years my senior). It's almost inevitable that he will die first and the thought of it gets me really down to the point where I'm almost in tears. I'm not normally one to focus on death and it's never consumed me like this before it's just that lately I've been thinking DP is all I've got. My mum died when I was 16 and I no longer have contact with any of my sisters, I have no friends (literally none) and I just keep thinking about how heartbroken I will be and how alone I will be without DP.
Sorry this is a bit of a vent, I just don't know what's wrong with me. How do you cope with these feelings when/if they come up? TIA