Just thought I would update...
So things have been much worse I feel so sad, lost, overwhelmed and angry. I feel like I did before I started Zoloft and I'm crying a fair bit again. I'm hating a lot at the moment and really just hanging on by a thread most days. I spoke to the perinatal team the other day and we have decided to stick to Zoloft until I finish the pack and then reassess. I will most likely change to something else.
Not to blame but dd just doesn't stop crying all day It's driving me crazy. A Dr and paed have both agreed she has reflux and colic but both refused to put her on meds and advised to use nothing and wait for her to grow out of it. I just don't know how much more I can take. Its too hot to babywear although she's prettyuch glued to me anyway. I can't do anything without listening to her cry.
I see a counsellor once a week, it hasn't helped yet but I think eventually it will.
So that's where I'm at...a bit depressing but I promised I would share my journey.
Still hoping for the best and I don't plan on giving up on treatment although it seems like the easier way out.