So my anxiety is still really bad but I'm not as miserable! My head feels a little clearer and I'm not feeling as overwhelmed all the time....I still have my moments of course. This may sound silly but I've gone from crying multiple times a day to not even getting the urge, it feels strange. I still lack motivation and everything feels like It's too much effort but I find that I can push myself through. I'm still stressing a lot and putting a lot of guilt and pressure on myself but counselling should help with that. I'm still really tired and sometimes highly irritable but I have only been taking Zoloft for 2.5 weeks.
I got the results from my bloods and no diabetes (phew) but I do have very low iron and extremely low vitamin d. So I'm also on vitamins which should help my tiredness.
I have my first in home counselling session on Thursday. I spoke to the woman on the phone and she was so lovely, I can tell I'm going to feel really comfortable around her. I have team health coming over this week and she's going to spend an hour or two with me and walk down the park with the kids. She is also looking into a mums group and driving us to story time at the library because I don't have my license.
I also have an organization called Catholic Care who will also spend an hour or two a week with me and taking us to a play group. She also mentioned they do in home stuff but I haven't had a proper meeting with them yet so will have more details soon.
So basically I'm doing better. Little improvements but It's so much better than being in a dark hole you feel like you can't get out of. I actually have hope that I might enjoy my life and my babies.
I just again wanted to thank every single beautiful person who has taken the time to support me. I honestly can not thank you enough xoxo