A week ago I found out my dh was cheating in me online.
This has happened before.
He said that he was just having a conversation and if it was with a guy friend I wouldn't be so upset.
Yes. I would. It was rather graphic talk.
He would have to be gay.
The next night I packed up my 2 boys and left after trying to talk to him and getting nothing.
He sms me half an hour later asking if we were coming home and when if at all.
Not that he wanted us to.
So we spoke on the phone for a few hours and I got some of the answers I needed so I came home.
He agreed to marriage counselling.
He took full blame (yes he had not admitted it to that point).
It's been 3 days now and he is making a bit of effort. He works in the garage and I work in the kitchen so we are home all day but I have felt like flat mates at best the last few months. Now he is coming in to watch a movie with me at night.
Coming to bed when I do even if he doesn't intend on staying in bed.
But I still feel alone. I am sleeping with Ds2 so I'm not in a bed along all night.
I even crawled in with Ds1 for a cuddle the other night.
DH never helps with Ds2 unless it involves playing or sleeping.
All he does with ds1 is yell.
We own a company together and we're just about to buy our house.
Now the in-laws don't want to sell it to us as they want to make sure I get it in the event we do break up.
We have agreed the company is his but I will keep a 30% share instead of child support.
I feel like everyone is talking like we have already broken up. Like even if we try to fix things we are doomed.
I feel like he is giving up but won't let me go.
I don't want to let go but I'm so broken.
I'm not worried about being a single mum. I have been there before.
I just don't do giving up without trying everything first.
There is no point to this thread.
I'm just feeling alone and life I needed to get it out of my head.
Thank you for reading.
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