I feel so stupid and annoyed with myself. I have one beautiful daughter and one adorable son. My DS is so gorgeous in fact that he is the sole reason I decided to have a third child. He is growing up before my eyes and I felt shattered, I knew I needed to have one more baby! When DH and I were TTC I honestly didn't have one thought about a preference for gender. Going into the 20 week scan I was excited to find out what we were having. I felt like it was going to be a girl because it felt like a similar pregnancy to DD, but even still I didn't feel that I really had a preference either way. We even had the perfect boys name picked so I was happy to find out that we were in fact having another little boy. And then I left the scan and suddenly felt this weird pit in my stomach. I suddenly realised I'm never going to have another daughter. I promptly started sorting through all DDs clothes to either give away or sell, and I started bawling (I'm embarrassed to admit), that I would never get to put another little girl into these clothes. By the next day I felt better, and most days I feel great, but then last week my best friend found out she was having a girl and I felt sad all over again. What on earth is happening to me?????? Is it pregnancy hormones? I can't seem to get a grip it's madness. This little boy is so wanted and I know I'll adore him and it's hard to explain but it's not that I don't want him, but it's like I'm sad for something I didn't realise I even wanted, another girl. Has anyone ever felt like this before? I'm so frustrated with myself.