Kelly77 I'm so sorry to hear about your results. I was ready to move on if last attempt wasnt successful, we are all proud, intelligent and independent women and bounce back and move on. I wish you all the very best.
I know that won't lessen the pain or take away the longing, but damn it, you deserve a win.
@Kellyk77 there are no words but I will still try. I think we all known that the best potential mothers don't always get the chance to fulfil their destiny.
I don't know either what plan b is for me. I've thought about having a crazy amount of fun for 10 years then ageing gracefully as a foster mother. Or maybe I will just move to Paris and drink wine and eat crusty bread and cheese as my hair turns to salt and pepper.
i hope when the knife in your heart eases a little you get the chance to chase a new dream. Not today, but one day, you will at least hold the knowledge that you tried everything.
Take care and thank you for your kind words and generosity of spirit,
Gosh you lot are bloody amazing! Each message has made me cry, your support really does mean a lot. You all know first hand how heart wrenching this journey is and know how I'm feeling right now. I haven't told my friends or family yet as I just couldn't bring myself to, I feel like I need to grieve on my own for a bit before I let them know. I find that whilst they love and support me, they don't really get it as they've never been through it. So that is why I'm so incredibly grateful for all your kind words today. I feel like I know you all so well even though we've never met!
As yo what the next step is and if I decide to pursue the DE option I'm just not sure yet. Going to give myself till the end if the year to get my life back, grieve for what could've been and then decide what to do next. I've been thinking a lot about doing some volunteer work with kids in Africa. It's something I've always wanted to do and it may just help ease the pain a little. Anyway girls, thanks so much again. You all rock! Oh and scuba I would do love to win the lotto!! Must buy a ticket x
Oh Kelly77 - that's just SO crap. I'm so very sorry that this has been your journey. There are really no words except maybe "bottoms up"? Donor eggs is a big step (although for me - a good one) and I think you're right to give yourself some time before you process that option. Grieving is important and necessary. Our pregnancy is from donor eggs, so if the time comes that you want to talk that one through a bit more, by all means PM me and I'll share the good the bad the ugly and the awesome
Africa sounds like an awesome idea! What a generous soul you are - and it may really help you work through what you want to do next. I'm with Scuba - I'm hoping there's a HUGE win on the horizon for you!
Thx @Vixjc :-) I am considering the DE option and have spoken to Lynn about it. But will give myself time to come to terms with this first. So I'll be sure to keep in touch as I'll need all the help and advice I can get!
I got an early BT today when I went to the clinic even though official test date is two days away. My HCG is 297.
I'm beside myself. Just wanted to let you lovely ladies know you've really helped me get through this cycle and I'm keen to stick around if you'll have me so I can cheer you all on. ❤️
Amazing news Scuba, that sounds like a good strong healthy hcg!! I'd be beside myself too!! And yes please stick around and egg us on, we like your sunshiney vibe xx
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