Yes I am still here @PreciousHeart! I read the thread alerts on my phone but haven't had time to update so much the last week or so. OMG I feel for you with all that is going on with your cycle right now, it is so bloody hard to line everything up when you're doing such complicated protocols and then when your body has something else to say about what it's meant to be doing – Gah. But as others have said, hopefully everything will fall into place as it should for you, even though it feels like complete chaos. Thinking of you and wishing you so much luck that this one is the success.
I had an afternoon at home last week crying b/c Gwyneth just would not lock me in to a phone consult with Dr M and I had to hold off everything because I couldn't get my neupogen dose or run through my protocol. Then magically I got an appointment and I swear rainbows and sunflowers suddenly filled the room.
I have started cycling now, had the scratch today (horrible!!) transfer should be on the 18th, depending on how my lining is looking, I go in next Weds and check that. Speaking to Dr M tonight to get my doses and check if he wants me to do Intralipid or IVIG, I forget what he said now about that but looks like I'll be sitting in that room in Hurstville next Saturday night with a drip in my arm instead of going to a friend's birthday party. Rock and roll. I can barely have a social life when I cycle anymore - does anybody else find that too?
Also wanted to say hi to @soclose today too xxx I think the conversations everyone had last week on these boards about an end point etc were very important and honest and I felt somewhat comforted by them, even though they are sad. It's important to talk about and acknowledge both sides of the ivf story.
To everyone else: Good luck! xx