Hey ladies, having a rough day. I'm about six weeks pregnant with number 2. Had some browny-reddish discharge today and went to the ER in tears. Apparently too early for an u/s so now I'm waiting for rest results to see if my hcg has dropped. I just hate this stage of pregnancy. I freaking hate it. All the medicos reinforce the fact that 20% of pregnancies miscarry and I should take it one day at a time. Nurse today was handing me pamphlets on miscarriage. I know they're right but I just can't. I try not to be invested but I am. I can't help it. I remember with number 1, by the end I was hugely swollen with preeclampsia in 37 degree heat and I still preferred that to this horrible stage where you can't tell anyone, you feel like crap and you're living with the knowledge your baby may die at any moment.
Anyway, I don't know what I'm looking for, I'm just miserable and I feel so weak falling apart like this.