I just go the msg to say my best friend delivered a healthy baby girl tonight.... im so incredibly happy for her but I cant help thinking we both should have had little girls born the same year except mine didnt make it
I know I shouldn't think that way but I cant help it and then the "why me's" start running through my head.... why did my baby have to die.... why couldn't I have kept her? I would have loved her so much.
I started back at work last week, I've been off since after we lost bub. I work in childcare and there are a ton of families expecting or with new babies. Every one of them is like a slap in the face, I should have a five month old now, instead im nearing the 1yr anniversery of losing her.
Sorry for such a negative post I just need to let this all out in a safe place, otherwise it just builds up inside until I go insane
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