DS2 will be 10 weeks on Tuesday. Until the last week,the physical act BFing was going OK. Then I got a painful graze on my nipple, which is just not getting better or going away no matter what I do. I am near tears every time I feed him.
It is also impacting the rest of my family. DS1 is so jealous, his behaviour is getting worse, not better. He is 2 1/2 and throwing constant tantrums, he is uncontrollable. Poor DD never gets to relax, I am constantly relying on her to follow her brother's path of destruction.
DS2 screams unless he is fed all evening- I cannot even go to the shops for 20mins. DH can't handle him and won't take him, using the bfing as an excuse.
I am trapped on the couch. I am usually so active, yet I cannot even have 30mins for a walk. I feel fat, lazy ugly and gross.
It currently feels like bfing is destroying my life. I feel like everyone who tells me "it gets better" is lying. I am in pain, miserable, my kids are suffering, my husband hates me. This is the longest I have ever lasted, I don't want to stop, but I am struggling to find the emotional strength and willpower to continue.