Little back story.
Dd- long pre labour, posterior positioned baby. Ended up with epi and vacuum
Ds- waters broke at home, good contractions, pain doable with gas at hospital, ds born 7 hrs later.
So I'm 39+4 and have had a few good contractions, and every time i get an actual contraction (not just a BH) I freak out and start to doubt wether I can do it again????
With ds I didn't really have an option for epi because by the time I was checked I was 8 cm and coping with just gas.
But then I think about how 'easy' labour was with the epi. Then I think of how empowered I felt after having ds 'naturally'.
Sooooo many thoughts running through my mind!
Does anyone else feel like this, or am I just being a crazy person hahaha :/