I feel like I'm failing as a mother and I don't know how to pull myself back up.
I have two children, ages 2 and 3.5 years. My two year old, who used to be an amazing sleeper, has taken to hating sleep. She will not go to sleep on her own any longer, she doesn't want me to hold her, pat her, anything. But the second I leave the room she screams. Then she'll finally fall asleep and she'll wake during the night coming out of her room and refusing to go back to sleep in her bed unless I sit with her for who knows how long, or let her sleep in my bed. Daytime sleeps are also a nightmare.
Then there's my 3.5 year old who has just been so aggressive. I feel like I can't take him anywhere because he is constantly deliberately ramming into other kids, hitting them etc. If I try to enforce boundaries he just hits, kicks and spits at me.
They both are constantly chucking tantrums in major ways, which I know is to be expected from the 2 year old, but I thought the older one would be starting to grow out of it by now. They aren't like this when they're with other people, and i'm starting to feel like I don't want to be around them and that they would be better off without me around.
I'm crying as I write this, I feel so guilty. I am not being the sort of mother I want to be but I don't know how to change it. I feel so overwhelmed, I'm exhausted and I don't know what to do anymore.