Well... Having another **** weekend. Feeling exceptionally lonely today and I can't believe I'm saying this (considering everything he has taken from me) I am actually missing my exH. Memories of less then a year ago keep flooding my mind (happy times I thought) and the fact that my baby is doing so many wonderful things that I just don't have anyone to share them with is breaking my heart. Wondering when I'm going to stop feeling this way on an hourly basis and when I might see the dull dim of a light at the end of a tunnel. I think another thing that has triggered this particular pity party has been a friend announcing their pregnancy. Something I fear will never be for me again. I LOVE being a Mummy and unfortunately I am feeling like being a single mum, 31 and a sufferer of fertility problems, my cake has been baked and eaten so to speak.
Just going to drown my sorrows by eating a stupid amount of doughnuts I think!