I've finally found time to post again a little update on how things went last night. After ringing up another abortion clinic due to my husband suggesting if I didn't feel comfortable at the 1st one perhaps look into an alternative location. I did as he asked and ended up on the phone to the lady for around 30 minutes, they simply asked me questions in relation to why I wanted to go through with it, if I was happy with my choice etc. Ultimately they once again refused to book me in, but instead suggested a free counselling session which I have booked into.
I went over to my sisters place last night and while my husband was there we had a bit of a discussion about everything. It's interesting as I found out my sister is more on my husband's side than mine, the reasons being; our financial position at the moment, the stress occurring in our life at the moment, the fact she knows I have expensive taste and she feels we are not adequately set up to deal with a child, nor should a child be born into a family where one of the parents doesn't want it. I understand what made her think these things; having two HUGE mortgages has killed us financially, all my husbands money is going towards the loans from the bank for those mortgages and my money is going towards paying for a huge debt we have after our wedding (due to my father pulling out of ALL financial obligations a week before the wedding). We have one of them up on the market at the moment but my husband stupidly gave my dad the better half due to 'just wanting to get out of it'. My dad sold his 3 days after putting it up and got a bucket load for it, we on the other hand have had 0 interest.
The other huge investment property is hopefully close to being worked out but we won't make any money on it, we are simply handing our shares over to investors that my dad has found so that he can continue subdividing it without us. It gets us out and back to where we began last year.
My problem is my husband has the following dreams; to go find another investment property after all of this is done, for us to move out and rent while that is occurring, to go travel to America and Canada (where our honeymoon was planned for but we had to cancel last minute due to mum), to build our dream home, to get two new cars that will be more safe and the list goes on. Yes I shared these dreams with him, but everything changes once you find out your pregnant. Priorities change and mine have certainly done that.
He said to me in the car on the way back to the house "I just want to know either way, you being so indecisive is killing me".