Thank you everyone. I am doing okay actually, kind of wish I was working so I could keep myself distracted but at the same time in a bit of pain.
These experiences I've had has made me question ALOT about my life. It's made me realise that life is so short so to make the most of it, ensure you live happy and not in regret. I will stay with my husband and see how things go once we move out of this toxic environment then I'll reassess if need be. I've already made him agree to go see a marriage counsellor as I will not continue living my life like this.
I'm just really sick of being judged by him, my sister and his parents. The reason for this is I am the only person who doesn't ***** about my dad (yes I am angry and furious at how he has treated us) but I'm just over being angry, it's way too draining. So they all think I am 'siding' with him. It's not about taking sides it's about moving on and not allowing him to dictate your emotions and life. My husband says that because I don't ***** about him it means I don't care and that upsets him. I was so excited about selling the land last night, it was the 1st good news I've heard since mum passed away. He turned it into a negative experience by screaming and swearing the whole drive to the hospital.