I also want to point out that I can imagine you having an abortion and it compounding your grief. What consolation will there be when your husband will be strutting around jubilant about the very thing you will be grieving over- your child? Can you imagine? Will you really feel glad to have kept your husband when it will now be based on the condition that you had an abortion you didn't even want to have? Who will be there for you at the end when you're bleeding and feeling empty? If the thought of abortion only fills you with dread and tears now it's only going to be worse afterwards. To me as an outsider there is more hope in the idea that you could keep your baby and find a way to make it work you know? I just had a baby myself and had similar pressure to abort. It's been up and down especially for the first few months of my pregnancy but over time those feelings became less and less and gave way to excitement. My baby is now 3 weeks old. His father is still an ******* who doesn't love me so no great loss there. I have not for a second regretted my decision to keep him. He's just the sweetest little baby His conception really shouldn't have been possible based on timing and I definitely took it as a sign that he was meant to be. His father has come around to a degree about wanting him but not enough for my liking. Either way even if he completely dissapeared and had no imput at all in our lives I'd still have chosen to keep him. No one here will give you a hard time if you have an abortion regardless of their personal beliefs including me I just feel like you want to keep your baby. Everyone has fears even in planned pregnancies it's not ness a sign that you can't do this either.