So I have this friend who wants nothing more than to have babies but she won't be TTC until the ending of the year. My issue is, I have always been a relatively private person and have never really told my friends anything-she's opposite and I know as soon as she POAS she'd tell me. I feel pressured to tell her but I'm not ready due to my TTC history which I don't think she appreciates. She told me to my face she was jealous of me being pregnant (even though it ended in mc).
I don't know when or how I should tell her. The first time I sent a text, her response was pretty self absorbed and the second time I didn't tell until long after my mc and the third-I haven't told anyone!
Has anyone dealt with a good friend who-when it comes to your TTC journey-turns into the complete opposite? How do you handle this? I'm not overly worried but I do value this friendship and I feel deceiving when I don't tell her. I also feel like I should lie so I don't seem deceitful like 'OMG dr made me do a test and it was positive! I didn't even know and now I'm freaking out!' as opposed to just being honest and telling the truth.
Any comments, thoughts or experiences are appreciated
ETA: I should also add that I haven't told anyone yet and really don't want to until after 12 weeks. I want to tell my friend before so I can be supported but I'm scared if I miscarry again-she'll act like a jerk again