Oh *hugs* OP. I have only just had my traumatic birth so I'm not a lot of help but I definitely agree with posters who have suggesting seeing someone. I have just started and while it doesn't happen overnight, it's nice to have someone to vent to, someone I don't know personally.
I have also had two traumatic ectopics with a hospital and I complained after negligence on their part (so bad I could sue... But not sure I can handle it) and they wouldn't even offer an apology. Not a single word. They wouldn't even give me my hospital records without jumping through hoops! It blows my mind women go through this everyday, and hospitals and drs think it's ok
If you ever need to vent please feel free to PM me. Like I said, sometimes it's nice to have someone just listen. Sometimes you don't want to be told it's ok, you just want to let it all out and get it off your chest xx