I had a traumatic birth with DD1 and seven years later, I'm still not over it. I am absolutely furious at the way I was treated, the permanent damage their negligence (kaleeya hospital midwives and obstetrician) has done to my body and mind, and I don't know how to get past it. After the birth they asked me, straight away, how it was. I said "okay i guess?" not really knowing and still recovering from this traumatic labor that left my daughter hypothermic and in an incubator, all due to their incompetence. When I complained later, they refused to listen to me because of that single sentence i said a day after I gave birth. In retrospect, I realize they do this on purpose knowing that it takes weeks or months to process a birth experience, particularly a traumatic one. I am so, so angry even after all these years. I once wrote a letter telling them I'd rather give birth on a roadside than in their hospital, which they ignored, but it's true.
Does the anger ever go away? Trying to TTC has brought it all back.