Well, I never thought I'd see the day I'd be joining a baby forum, but here I am. TTC! (The fact I even know most of the acronyms now would be quite funny to anybody who knew me)
I guess I now just want to be around others who are going through
the same month to month feelings I am?
A bit of background on me - I'm 31 this year, I've technically been TTC for 15 months now (that is, not so actively trying other than letting it happen if it happened) with the occasional input of a cycle tracker app (tracking periods not ovulation! I'm quite ashamed to say that I realise now I was clueless about when I was supposed to be chasing the egg so I am hoping that has been the problem here.)
THus, I have began to track ovulation in the last month (OPK & CM, & I am going to start temping also) and will give myself another few months of trying at these optimum times before fertility testing around August-SEp. I know everybody says check after 1 year but I feel I have only had one real go on the board, with maybe an odd chance here and there.
Before starting TTC I wouldn't have even had an idea how long my cycle was, other then noting that it came every month. So many things about this process I was utterly clueless about. Most of all, I didn't realise how difficult it would be to fall pregnant! And then if you do fall pregnant, all the things I have read lately in just STAYING pregnant. I mean, this is hard work! I realise now that I have taken this whole thing for granted.
Overall, I hate that it has taken me so long to "feel ready" that I now have to deal with TTC in the harder stages of the child bearing years. But nobody to blame but myself!
My problem now is I feel this is starting to consume my life! In the fertile phase I'm doing the things I need to be doing, and then I'm waiting patiently to see if it's worked. When it doesn't I'm LISTLESS until I can start trying again. There's no symptom I haven't googled to see if this could be it, but when I'm not in the "possibility phase" and a tummy ache is just a tummy ache I'm blank and just going through the motions of my days until
it's time to try again! Oh well, next week it starts all over again!
Thanks for letting my ramble, I feel I've taken the first steps towards accepting that it is time to check into things further now, and I really hope to meet others who are on the same hard road!