Throughout my childhood I was desperate for love and affection, to be appreciated and respected. Instead I was manipulated and controlled instead of being taught about life. Fast forward 20 years and I am fearful of making decisions. If someone asks for something, I can give you 100% of myself, even if you treat me like ****. Yet, something that I want, something I am absolutely desperate for I hesitate and question myself, especially when others disagree with it. I am so alone and unhappy.