I understand what you mean Shrillian, I've been too scared to join one of those testing threads because I had a read through and thought it would probably make me feel stressed!
What do the CD21 bloods tell you Delirium? I literally have NO idea about any of the testing available for any of this stuff! I they can give you get some answers you are looking for! If my cycles continue to be completely weird (and I'm starting to worry that what if that means I'm not even ovulating..?) I don't even know what tests I should have done or what's available
I'm feeling really annoyed and self doubting today. I remarked to a friend (someone I thought was quite close and switched on) that I am so looking forward to having kids, but at the same time, I'm also rather terrified. (Given that I never wanted kids before, so I never really bothered to learn anything about them and this whole situation is so new to me. Plus, Im the type of person who researches things to death and knowledge is the only thing that puts my mind at ease about anything) and she said, quite nastily, "well, clearly if you're scared, you're not ready to have kids. You should probably stop trying until you're actually ready. You shouldn't be having kids unless you're only having positive thoughts about it". WTF Someone please tell me it's ok to be scared? Even if it's something you want to do, that it's ok to be scared of the unknown? I am literally petrified of doctors, always have been, especially of anything of a 'personal' nature, due to some bad experiences when I was young. I'm scared that I'm going to be out of my depth once we have a baby and scared that when I get pregnant, I'm going to feel intensely happy, followed by a feeling of OMG this is actually happening . But I feel like I must be ready, since I feel all those things, but want to go ahead with it anyway! Please tell me this is an ok way to feel??