Thanks ladies. More fool me for staying. I just hope I can work up the strength to leave sooner rather then later. Like I said it's not like he treats me horrible, it's the complete opposite and he is an amazing father.
I also worry it's that I won't find anyone else or be happy again. I often wonder if it's me. I can be such a moody b!tch who would want to put up with me. But anywho.... Sorry for derailing.