As the title suggests, tonight is a 'sad' night. 7 months on and I am still wondering what on earth I did to deserve the hand I have been dealt. Why was my life was turned upside down?! I am also having a difficult time with my new label as 'single mother' and when people ask what my husband does and I reply "it's just me" I am felt sorry for?! Where did my loving husband of nine years go? Its so hard to see Daddy's with their babies and families enjoying the most precious time in their lives. Probably wouldn't be as difficult if he was the only person that walked out on me in the last few years. I don't often have a meltdown so writing it down here makes me feel so much better and I'm just exhausted from having to be Mummy and Daddy. This wasn't how it was supposed to be!