@Dreamer123 completely understand how you feel. I think after going thru so much we start to protect ourselves. Sometimes I feel it's as soon as I think it's going to happen, something happens to prove me wrong. Hate been glass half empty but also hate that fall we I start to believe it a positive and it's not!! Then I start to think my negativity could be the reason. Honestly do my own head in most of the time!!
Offout to dinner with dh tonight, one of the perks of having my mum stay for a couple of weeks