@KarmaJane - how are you travelling?
Mrs Hopeful: Good luck with your BT tomorrow! But I think your tests already say what you've been hoping for...see? One was all it took
AFM: Still just waiting. DH had his second sample on Saturday (the first was still crap I guess, our FS doesn't see the need to tell us unless it's good). The last 2 days have been rough. A very close friend told me she's pregnant...on the second month of trying. Life is just so unfair. I'm pretty depressed to be honest. DH and I are pretty involved in roller derby in our area (as is aforementioned friend) which means we hang out with a lot women in their 20s and early 30s. So I see this as being a pattern from this point on. Which is why I think I'm quitting the sport. I can't keep doing it and watching all these girls get pregnant and whinge for 9 months that they wish they could skate while I'm quietly (and sometimes not so quietly) dying inside. I'd rather sit at home. I know shutting myself away isn't the answer but I can't think of anything else to do.
I also feel feel like an awful person because I can't make myself feel happy for my friend. All I keep thinking is she's bigger than me and her hubby isn't small either so how come they get to have a baby and we don't? I know I'm a horrible person but I think I'll probably end up cutting her off...