I just can't take it anymore, I want to DIE!

**Lunar** · 22-11-2006 17:14

I am serious!
Anyone who has been reading about all the goings on with my body after the birth of Kailah will know what I am talking about.

Last period was only 2 weeks ago and was so heavy I was using a super tampon AND a super pad every hour at least!

Now it is back! My stomach is killing me! I broke my toe this morning and my stomach hurts more than that! My little toe (the broken one) as big as my big toe and there is alot of bruising there. So it is painful but not as much as my darn uterus! I am soo bloody sick of this bleeding and the horrid horrid pain that comes with it! It is seriously like labour pains... NO JOKE!

I am going to try to get in to see my Dr soon and get a referal to see another gyno (you all know what happened with the last one!... rude ba$tard! to say the least!)

I just want to be sorted out! And 3 months on hormones has done diddly!

I guess this is just a whinge and a vent.

I am just so physically drained from all the bleeding and pain.
My poor girls are missing out on their mummy cos I can hardly move. I sit her in tears typing this from the pain. I have strong pain killers but they make me drowsy, don't want to knod off while the girls are still up.

Anyways, that's where I'm at... very sore, very depressed, and very lonely... no one to talk to who is going through the same things.

**misskittyfantastico** · 22-11-2006 17:32

If there were an award for "most sympathy inducing OP" then you would surely romp it in.

I winced repeatedly reading your post and I wish I could help you in some "real" way - I have a strong urge to come over and cook your dinner and do your washing.

It sounds like utter hell. I really hope things are sorted very soon.

**Lunar** · 22-11-2006 17:38

thanks misskitty.
I am just so sad about it.
I really want to never ever have a period for the rest of my life! I have had more days bleeding since kailah was born than not!

**Billy** · 22-11-2006 17:42

I am so sorry you are going through this hun...

I did years ago for unknown reasons, and all I wanted to do was sit in the shower with water down my back (much like labour) to ease the pain...

I can't even imagine functioning through that again with 2 darling girls to care for

Is there anyone helping you out with the girls whilst going through this?

Fingers crossed its sorted for you soon...

So I am not going through it now- but have before if you want to chat

xoxoxox

**Lunar** · 22-11-2006 17:49

Thanks Billy.
I will pm when I am less hateful of the world.

Thanks for the support girls, it means alot.

I am just so tired of it all.
Along with this I have chronic depression, so this is NOT helping one bit!

Seems the universe is out to get me this year!

**nuddle** · 22-11-2006 18:17

hugs... dont really know anything about what you have been going through, just know that I have been there, the depression, and the horror AF's with pain and clots, and no dr able to figure out what to do about it..... think you need some time out, hope you can get some answers...

**jess_live_die** · 22-11-2006 18:23

aww hunni you poor thing i hope everything looks up

**reAllytee** · 22-11-2006 19:07

Awww Kris

You know what i say about this because you really need to find a doctor who listens come out my way to my doctor if you want its actually shocking she LISTENS

& she doesnt end the consult you do !!!!
I wish all g.p's were like that !!!!

**Lunar** · 22-11-2006 19:29

My GP is not the problem Ally, it's the stupid plick of a gyno I was seeing. Not only did he charge me an arm and a leg but he was rude and insulting!
Need a new gyno.