Been away for awhile, but just read the past 7 pages!! So much has been happening!
My goodness, what incredibly gorgeous babies! And growing up so fast! Hope this doesn't sound weird Rainbow, but I remember the photo you posted of Toby when was just 'cells'!
J - I hope your treatment is helping you. I recently had to start expressing more and I found taking some lactation tablets from a health store has defitinely boosted my supply! The mixture is Blessed Thistle and Fenugreek.
Chelsea and I are doing ok. She will be 9 months next week and has been crawling around for about a month and a half and has been pulling herself up on furniture for about 2 weeks. I am so over the moon that she is crawling as she is 10.2 kgs! Freaking heavy!!!
I also, have not been coping a week before Mother's Day I actually lost the plot and had a big melt down. DH sent me off to a hotel for a night to get some sleep and my sh!t together!! Since Xmas Chelsea's sleep has been getting worse, but about 3 months she would wake every 45 mins/1.5 hours and the longest she would last would be 2 hours every now and then :/ her day naps would be lucky to be 20 mins. She was such a cranky monkey and with no family here and DH working very long hours, I found myself getting lower and lower and not saying anything, because, really....who was going to help?? I literally have no-one here! One day Chelsea was doing her usual scream and kicking me as I was changing her nappy. I could feel myself getting angrier and angrier, but just breathed through it's then I kind of just lost it and started screaming at her and was holding her foot quite firmly at that point I told her how much I just hated being her mother I have never been so low and lost. Went to the GP and I am now on the 'urgent' list for 2 sleep schools - but only actually booked into one at the end of June - 8 week waiting list.
But the best thing was that with hubby looking after Chelsea, he had a bit more tough love for her and after refusing to feed her when she kept waking and patting her to sleep, she had a 4 hour sleep, had a massive bottle (200 ml) and then slept another 5 hours!! The next morning, she had a 1.5 hour nap!!
So I had been doing that and each night is different, but I was getting the 3 or 4 hour sleeps, but was getting fed up with the expressing at 2am, so went back to boob feeding and she kept waking every 1.5 hours! While I would pat her back to sleep, the constant waking was getting to me again! So I am back to feeding her the EBM at night - last night was shocking, but let's hope tonight is better!!!
We have started solids as well and now that she is crawling, I try and get her to do laps of the house to wear her out!!
Hubby has forbidden any talk of anymore kids as this has been incredibly hard for us. But my goodness, mothering sure mucks up your emotional state!! When the Dr stated PND I begged her not to put me on meds and she agreed saying that I am just exhausted! I adore my little girl, but it really makes me feel so weak and pathetic some times that I can't do this! So hopefully sleep school will help out! I am not looking for all night sleeps, but 4-5 hour stints would be a dream!!!
Here are some pics of my lil cherub (also known as Devil Woman in my mothers group!!)
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