This is my first post in this section. I'm feeling a little lost in the cracks. We've been doing ivf for 2 1/2 years, 8 failed transfers and decided at the end of last year, that was to be our last. And it's been kind of great to start this year without all of this hanging over us! Such relief and freedom to enjoy life again.
But on our last cycle (Dec 13) we ended up with 2 frozen embies, so there's that in the background. Plus I'm currently going to a naturopath to check for a hormone imbalance. So I've mostly moved on, but I guess there is part of me that still wants a tiny speck of hope that it may still be on the cards for us somewhere down the track.
I'm struggling to find any support through this phase. My previous gorgeous support group have almost all had their babies now, and try as they might, they don't understand this place I'm in, so close to the end. I've all but moved on emotionally, but I still have my days where I wonder if this might work, or that might work.
I'm really down at the moment because, while we have a low sperm count, this is obviously not our only issue as we've had multiple prefect embies put back and not implant, so I guess we really fall into the unexplained category now. So while it's not likely, there is a chance for us still naturally. But my husband can only dtd once and then it takes a few days for him to be able to do it again, so each ovulation we only get one chance. Anyway, I've just o'd and try as I might, I couldn't spark any interest from him. It's such a blow when you try to seduce your man only to get knocked back. And then on top of that I feel like I am totally kidding myself for even caring. And I'm really confused about why this is upsetting me so much, when I thought I was doing so well with the thought of letting this all go.
Does anyone here understand any of this? I fell really lonely too, as my usual helpers, well I feel like I can't really talk about this perspective with them. I don't know if this is the right place, or if better in the password protected area?
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