You are inspiring my dear! What a gorgeous attitude. And I had a little chuckle about DH icing his balls too - Gold! Wishing you all the luck in the worldErtgirl oh no that is upsetting, But who knows you might get lucky. If the others wouldn't fertilise and this one did, then this is probably the good one. Out of 5 eggs at our age we are probably only going to get one that will make it to blast anyhow So it's essentially perhaps been selected early. Because this is the good egg, it may be capable of doing something, as we know you can have babies....
Chris - omg you take the cake for persistence! Good for you! Can I ask what kept you going? My mum bled the whole pregnancy on and off with me by the way. How did your appointment go?
bertie - I feel bad that you feel so sad, but I can't shake the feeling that due to your high intelligence, persistence, supportive partner and ability to organise and plan, you will get a baby in the end. Don't torture yourself unnecessarily with it all. I have total faith in you because from your signature you have only ever had 2 embryos transferred in your ivf life, is that right? To date I've had 11 transferred and still no bubby. So you spent 50k, who cares, some people put that through the pokies, a divorce, legal troubles, romantic disasters, buying ugly furniture or crappy art, collecting cars, motorbikes, ostrich farms, plastic surgery, race horses, making bad real estate investments.... My DH spent more than that on his stupid boat he doesn't even use because it always breaks down. At least you're doing something that's important to you and that you believe in. That's all that matters.
New FS, New plan. He says it looks like there's scar or new fibroid in the uterus and I seem a bit PCOS-ish. Plan for new protocol - higher fsh dose - 250!, long down reg instead of antagonist over 3 cycles, freeze all, PGD, hysteroscopy & nk biopsy/scratch/removal of scar, then transfer adding clexane/steroids/intralipids/feldane if necessary.
But the best part is that DH has to ice his balls nightly which I was super smug about. Finally happy the little bugger has to do something uncomfortable. Looking forward to some cycles without a transfer and the BFP/bfn anxiety. If we do all these things and still fail, I think at this point the fat lady has well and truly sung.
Started sniffing today, so im not having a period either so Im really freakin happy about that. Also, the best news is that after an afternoon of poking and prodding at Wesley, my boob tumours are 'complex but stable' and I can continue having yearly surveillance.
I spent the morning taking all my frustrations out in the garden and after declaring war on anything standing in my way, have torn all the weeds out of all the flower beds and finally feel better. I'm planning a new girlie flower bed to attract more butterflies to the garden (we have so many) to remind myself that life is still beautiful, no matter what happens to you.
Off to chemical menopause I go. Poor DH.