I'm not sure where to start. I had a terrible obstetrician and felt bullied by him and my partner to either induce or have a caesarean. They wouldn't let me go to the birth centre or hire a doula. I decided to hire a doula anyway and my husband refused to come to the meeting and would not let her in our house. I hired the doula - she is amazing. I've learned so much in just the last fortnight and I can't imagine delivering without her. She helped me to see that my husband and doctor were not supportive and very controlling. I've since ditched them both and now staying with my brother. I see my doula once or twice a week.
I got got into the birth centre at Royal Hospital for Women. My doula came with me and I felt at ease. However just the site of the medical personnel freaked me out. I feel as though I've been traumatised by my obstetrician and my husband laughing at me and I can't imagine at doctor at my delivery.
long story short I'm thinking about having the baby at home. I can't afford a midwife and my doula has said that she will not help me to deliver the baby or do anything in an emergency. She said I need to hire a midwife and had given me the details of one who sounds awesome. There is another midwife who had Medicare rebate but I don't think she sounds right for me (doesn't allow wen to go more than two weeks overdue and is closely affiliated with obstetricians).
are there any other alternatives?