So, this happened! babylois.jpg
Baby Lois was born on the 16th July, 10.35pm weighing a tiny 5lb 10 0z and 21 inches long. I'm still incredibly overwhelmed and can't get my head around the fact she's mine. She has his facial expressions and beginnings of his cleft chin/long legs, but other than that I hope that's all she's inherited!
She's a very calm, chilled out baby, so she's making it easier for me to adjust and take my time- she sleeps really well and everyone falls in love with her as she's so dinky, like a little doll.
I've cried everyday, still see my counsellor and think I'm always doing everything wrong with her as I know literally nothing about babies, but I'm trying hard and she really is such a lovely little thing, I've come a LONG way, so wanted to take the time to say thank you to each and every one of you who listened to my problems and gave me the strength to keep this baby all those months ago and make a new life for myself after such a horrible, abusive experience.
Through this journey I've hit rock bottom and had to rebuild myself again as not only a new woman, but a Mother now too. I've met countless other ladies who've been through the same ordeals with these Narcissistic Sociopaths who have inspired me that it does eventually get better afterwards, so I hope to do the same and show people that you can come out the other side.
I’ve ended up stronger, wiser and with a beautiful Daughter, whereas losers like him will only destroy everything until they have nothing left. He hasn’t even enquired to see if she’s even alive, too busy with his next deluded schoolgirl victim....
So, that's my news! All your advice earlier in the year (it seems like a lifetime ago now!) is still very much appreciated. Hope you like the photos- the one in her carseat when I first bought her home is blurry I know as I was still shaking, but I love it because I think her fingers say a clear message to her "sperm donor" we are not to be messed with!
Love and best wishes from me and Lois xxx