We lost our little girl at 21 weeks back in October. I think I'm coping pretty well I know a few friends of mine who experienced losses couldn't look at pregnant women, hold babies etc for quite a long time without feeling that pain. I have lots of pregnant friends and babies around me and I'm happy for them and have no problem talking baby stuff etc without losing my sh*t.
That being said there are still things people say or do that makes me so angry, sad or upset. I don't voice it to them obviously but I thought this might be a safe place to share those things that hurt your heart so much.
-people complaining about pregnancy, I get its hard and tiring and stressful but man I wish I was puffy, fat, tired and sore and still had my baby on board.
- people being upset over not getting desired sex. As above I understand the feeling behind it but I'd give anything just for my 2nd dd to have been healthy.
-at a party the other night while sitting with my pregnant friend someone asked her what's going on, her sister replied with "well she's still pregnant" and everyone laughed. Gosh not even directed at me but I had to move away and take a few deep breaths.
Maybe one day I'll stop getting these feelings at comments that aren't intended to upset me but for now I just smile and hope with every new day my broken heart will mend a little bit more.
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