I don't know what to say @Bluebirdgirl. Maybe sometimes it will hit you harder than others. Triggers for emotions, who can figure them out! If you're emotionally in a better place right now and looking forward to this new baby then maybe that's why you don't feel sad about your previous loss.
It's good to be focused on the new baby. That's certainly what I'm trying to do!
I'm feeling a little unsettled today. I ended up at the pregnancy observation unit yesterday for monitoring. I'd been to see my GD dr and my blood pressure was too high so she sent me off to the hospital for monitoring and testing. That completely freaked me out. Thankfully the urine/blood tests have come back normal (other than anaemia) and bub's heart rate and level of movement is good.
The dr had warned me about my blood pressure early on and that pre-eclampsia is a possibility. I worried about it a lot at the beginning of the pregnancy but since things have been going smoothly I'd just hoped/assumed that everything would be OK. My blood pressure has actually been good for months, up until yesterday. And I've been managing to keep my emotions in check up until now, thinking I have no reason/evidence that anything will go wrong and I should be able to deliver a healthy baby. But this threw me into a bit of a tailspin. It made me realise that everything is such a delicate balance. I have no idea why my BP was so high yesterday; I wasn't feeling stressed, actually quite calm but tired (who isn't?). I just have to keep telling myself I don't have long to go, we've come this far, I'll be closely monitored now and everything will be OK.